Day 01 Your Current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.1

Day 01 Your Current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

My current relationship, with whom? I guess I will start with the most important relationship to me, and that is with God. My relationship with God definitely grown over the years. I have to say that within the past year I definitely had an epiphany of re-finding God in my life and I owe a lot of that thanks to my best friend, who got me back in the rhythm of going to church and prayer. This is something that I don't think I've ever publicly admitted, but I definitely lost sight of God, and was angry with him. After my grandma passed away, anger was one of the top emotions that I felt. (that is a whole other blog that will come later) I blamed him for taking her and even though yes, she lived a life that was full and happy, it was the hardest thing that I have dealt with, losing someone that I called my best friend and having God take her, I couldn't feel anything but anger toward him. Now that it has been 2 years since she passed away, I have definitely repaired my relationship with God. It has been a long battle to get where I am at today and fully thank him for all of my blessings. Someone once told me when I was going through a time of struggles, (that has stuck with me) God will always be there if you believe he will, it is the devil that sidetracks you with negative and it is whether you can get past the struggles and still believe that God is by your side.

So my friendship (relationships)...that is a very interesting subject, especially this week. I'm not going to lie I have struggled with friendships, and it has been brought to my attention on several occasions, not because I'm not a good actually great friend, but because I am just that. I am constantly there for people, not matter what, no matter the time of day, I have always been there. I guess been the one that people have relied on. I have realized that I give in and trust fairly easily which sometimes has not been to my benefit except for the hurt of betrayal. I do have my close friends and love them more than anything. I have a great "sis" that I don't know if she will ever know how much she has meant to me in this world! No matter the fights, she has definitely been the rock behind my smile on the bad days! I have the best friends that we have definitely lived life to the fullest on some nights, that will always be a memory and ones that we will never be able to replicate, but so glad that they were a part of that time of my life. I'm more than thankful for those relationships that have been a chapter or even a part of a chapter in my life.

My current relationship status...Single, I guess we can conquer this subject now :)
So it has been a long 7 years to say the least, but yet at the same time, VERY FUN! Would I say that I was fully single this whole time, I guess it would depend on your definition. By mine, yes, have I dated, of course, however really been in a "real"ationship, No. Am I okay with this, ehhh there are days that have made me wonder, am I going to be alone for the rest of my life, but who am I to judge fate. I have definitely lived the past 7 years with no regrets in this department... It always makes me think of that quote "You have to meet a few wrong people, just to meet the right one," Which I'm pretty sure that holds true, I have always said this, you can't tell what you want, when you don't know what your choices are. You start with a blank canvas of what you would want out of someone, a person may come along and show you what you may think is what you want, however they may just hold certain qualities, these get painted on this canvas, and after awhile you come to realize that your picture is pretty much complete, that you know what you want in someone. Am I at that point in my life, I can't say for sure. Is it the commitment that I'm scared of well probably, but if you aren't scared then you are paying attention in life. I mean there are definite days where being alone has its perks, but I think the others outweigh these days where you just want to share something with that one person you know will care... But for now, single is how I am and being ready to commit, well I don't think anyone is ever ready for it, it just happens when it's supposed to :)