Just another day...

At some point in my life, I'm guess I will own up to the fact that I'm learning.....Learning part of that growing up part of life that I'm not sure I will ever realize is happening. For now I'll own up to the responsibility of accepting my flaws and my mistakes. I've made some real doozies over the past few years, but my growth from them is what I am truly learning to value.

I've learned some very important things, that are continuing to make me grow. Yes my insecurities and sometimes my fear holds me back, but I have to stand up to them. The fear itself may hold me back from opportunity and I'm a go-getter and can't let that happen. My worries and doubt have been slowly silenced by my trust. And for those that know me know that that is one of the hardest things that I've had to overcome, yes the worry does rear its ugly side, I have to learn the past is the past. Learn from it!

Although at some of my barriers I try to run away because its is the easy path to travel, it is not necessarily a road worth taking. My obstacle that I've faced is learning to let go, be free and jump... but lately I feel I've chosen the right road, afraid to fly, but worth the jump. After I didn't think I would ever get back into school, I did it and my first semester back although not the best, My GPA was a 3.0, higher than it was when I quit school back 5 years ago. So proud yes, however knowing I can do better is what keeps my drive. Can't let the fear of striking out, keep me from playing the game.

Monday I started a new diet...part of this whole new me. Although it is probably not going to last long, I'll be positive, and try to stick with it as long as I can. I want to have a healthier lifestyle and for the most part I do lead a pretty decent one. Hitting the gym at least 4-6 times a week keeps my motivation high!

Can't being to express how excited for the changes to come!

A College Edu-macation

After recently stalking a friend's facebook status, it was very interesting the argument that was going on back and forth between comments.... The background of the status was about how certain people only think or talk about sex and if you are a guy that only thinks with your dick and not your brain to keep walking. Now that is a completely other subject for sure. One of the comments was very interesting to me, which kind of sent a fire through me:

This girl commented:

"I suppose if you were spending your Friday nights studying at the school of engineering or school of medicine, you would meet an entirely different class of people and *maybe* some men with brains and an interest in a woman as a person. "

Now this is what kind of hit me. First how is that in any relation to the actual subject of the status to begin with...I guess for this person maybe the more educated individual is what strikes this person's fancy. I guess this soap box for me was not one that I wanted to stand on. I am not the kind of person that judges other's based on their education, their fame or fortune. For everyone to me is just a person, that craps and still stinks! Another funny aspect of this status to me, is the school where you need to study, not only do you need to be educated but you need to be studying engineering or medicine.... Now I have no college degree, however I think that I have a pretty amazing brain. I know many individuals out there without college degrees, that have made it and are making it with goals and structure in their life. I guess this comment, really hit me that judgement is passed. Summing up her comment I guess if you aren't in a school where you are going to a prospective leader making large sums of money than you aren't in a "good" social class or hanging out with guys with brains.

What a joke...I guess I will be with the rest of the social class that isn't with my nose in a book, but experiencing life on a Friday night instead of studying it up....judge me as you may.

A New day...

So out of my daily routine, that I have somewhat adapted to over the last few months, a wrench was thrown in there.... It is amazing how comfortable you get to the every day life that you lead that sometimes along the way you lose sight of the fact that things change and when they do it is crazy how we adapt to the new change.

This week, even though a short week, brought about a New Year and some major changes in my life. Although just like everyone else, I have created a New year's Resolution, I am having the hardest time sticking to it. My sailor mouth is something I'm trying my hardest to get rid of!! And although it becomes an even bigger challenge especially when I'm a crazy KU Basketball fan and conference play started this week!

So my new New Year's Resolution at this point, is to set some amazing life goals. After recent talks with a very close friend, she has come up with an amazing idea a Life Book, which I can't wait to start....full of my ideas and goals and motivations for myself....Each year or every few months I'm going to update it. My next challenge I plan to do this month....conquering the tornado of a room in my apartment, aka my CLOSET! I really want to start organizing my closet and getting rid and purging JUNK!!!! So my newest long term goal....Getting my masters by the time I'm 30! I finally found the program that I'm so pumped and ready to start! Bachelors in a few and masters after that! I can't wait!!!

There were changes that have happened this week and although small it is crazy how much they effect my life. It is a huge thing for me at least when you let someone into your life and realize that you have to let your guard down and after a few months I feel as though I've conquered this test. Choosing to not only care about someone else but also caring about myself as well...letting myself be happy, and although this month is only off to a start, I know it is going to fly by and can't wait to see what changes are just around the corner! In past few months I wouldn't even call it lucky as much as now I call it blessed. :-) You can't be afraid to fall...when you can always get back up and try again.

Stuffed Green Peppers Yummmm

So last night I did some more cooking :) Love cooking especially when you get to cook for someone ;) ...

So here's the latest, stuffed green peppers!

1 lb ground turkey/ ground beef

1/4 cup diced onion

2 garlic cloves diced

1 tbs Italian seasoning

1 tbs parsley

1 16 oz can of tomato sauce

Colby/Monterrey Jack Shredded cheese

4 Green/Red Peppers

2 Cups Brown Rice (I used instant)

1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees
2. Start your instant rice
3. Brown meat with onion, garlic, Italian Season, Parsley
4. Cut the tops off the peppers and de-vein and de-seed them
5. Add in the rice after it has fully cooked
6. Add in 3/4 can of the tomato sauce
7. Add 1 cup of the shredded cheese
8. Stir so it is mixed thoroughly
9. Spoon mixture into the peppers
10. Pour tomato sauce over each pepper just enough to cover
11. Top with shredded cheese
12. Bake until the peppers are tender and the cheese is melted

Before putting in the oven

The finished product...sorry the picture was blurry...

Foodie!?

Yummm so I've been doing a lot of cooking lately...

Last night I made an amazing version of my chicken enchiladas...

Ingredients:

1 lb Chicken Breast

4 tsp cumin

4 tsp cayenne pepper

2 tsp of garlic powder

1 tbs of cilantro

2 jalapenos seeded, diced

1/4 cup white onion

1 small can green chilies with juice

2 garlic cloves

olive oil

salsa

shredded cheese

1 14 oz can of enchilada sauce

1 package of 8 tortillas

Preheat oven to 350!

1) Poach chicken with 2 tsp cumin (to flavor), 2 tsp of cayenne pepper, 2 tsp of garlic powder, drain the juice of the chilies into the water also for flavoring.

2) Saute onion, jalapeno, green chilies, 1/8 cup of salsa, garlic, olive oil, 2 tsp of cumin, 2 tsp of cayenne pepper until veggies are tender

3) Once chicken is cooled slightly, shred

4) Add chicken to the veggies and 3/4 cup of the enchilada sauce, and 1 cup of the shredded cheese, heat to melt cheese into mixture

5) Spoon filling into tortilla shells and roll, placing seam down in a baking dish

6) Cover with the remaining enchilada sauce and shredded cheese

7) Bake for 15-20 minutes until cheese is melting and bubbly!

ENJOY!

Skipping Day 12...Day 13 Somewhere you'd like to move or visit

I am skipping day 12, primarily because my days have been pretty boring since I came back from Vegas, I've been attempting to stay as low key as possible :)

So on to where I would like to visit or to move, funny question especially right now...

If anyone knows me at this point right, anywhere but here is some place that I want to be right now. My heart ♥ is definitely set on Vegas! I went there once and fell in love, the city was amazing! I know most of you will think that it was the going out that got me going, but it definitely was not! I enjoyed the weather and the awesome friends that I made there and my Sis there! It was the best time ever! After I got out of the midwest I realized that there is a whole new world out there! Since then I have not stopped exploring the option of relocation!

For the past few years the thought of relocation has been in my mind non-stop and I think I just needed the push and shove to get my butt in gear to get out of here!

Day 11 Put your Ipod and write the first 10 songs that pop up

1. Mrs. Officer - Lil Wayne...this brings back some memories of the concert last year...pretty sure there were some awesome Mrs. Officer costumes at the concert...sequins and cellulite..HOT! At least I got to see Wayne :)
2. Diva - Beyonce - First let me say I HATE BEYONCE, I know hater! Whatev, but I love this song, prob cause I'm a hustla, haha
3. The Used - I Caught Fire - back in the Emo days I loved this song, and still do!
4. Waka Flocka - No Hands, I have to admit I'm a fan of these catchy little crappy rappy songs lol
5. Britney Spears - If You Seek Amy....If you don't get this song, say it slowly OUT LOUD!
6. Martin Solveig Ft Dragonette- Hello - ONE OF MY FAVS! mostly because I have a new found love for house music YIKES, Vegas did it to me!
7. 2 Pac - Changes...
8. Webbie - Independent another one that will always be on my ipod...seriously! I got my own car, I got my own house, two jobs, work hard, I'm a bad broad! Enough said!
9. Usher - O.M.G pretty much my theme song for Summer 2010!
10. Boyz II Men - The End of the Road - LOVED Boyz II Men... Motown Philly! Seriously Stephanie Tanner!