I guess I've been holding back on my blogging, let's not pretend that I'm an innocent princess, cause Lord knows if you really know me, you know I'm a mistake maker and a learner from them....
I'm going to VEGAS! I have the best sister in the whole world and it was a great surprise on Friday morning to work to have an e-mail with a flight itinerary to VEGAS! I leave Thursday night after work and get in right before dinner! I'm so pumped...first vacation will be the best! I haven't seen my sis in almost a year and it can't come at a perfect time!
Monday, June 6, 2011
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Rollercoaster
Lately I feel like that I've masked my emotions for some kind of acceptance. It is hard to live in a world that is full of nothing but materials...that give us some satisfaction of partial happiness. I need to work on a lot...and I've realized that my relationship with the most important person in my life has suffered. I need to get back in to my mode of church and God, because that is the most important thing in life. Trying to understand why I do the things I do is so complicated, and sometimes even sitting in thought I never understand. I have come to realize after talking with a good friend yesterday, you can't hold grudges, no bad blood between anyone, because you never know when life could just be taken, you don't know when God has his plan for you....
I'm so ready for change it's crazy. Summer has just begun and the fun is already on an up swing! God has put amazing people in my life here lately and I'm more than blessed for all of them!
I'm so ready for change it's crazy. Summer has just begun and the fun is already on an up swing! God has put amazing people in my life here lately and I'm more than blessed for all of them!
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Long time coming
It has been forever since I have done some writing...so while at work today I'm going to be doing some in and out blogging....*WARNING now it's free off the top of my head thoughts that may just not make sense at all! LOL*
As I sit back and think of everything that has happened within these last few years of my life all I can say is I'm blessed. I may not have the most money, the best car, the designer clothes...but I have life and that is all that matters. At the break of the day I'm thankful the man above for giving me the air in my lungs and the ground beneath my feet to run on and make a future with.
This past week so much happened, there was so much excitement filled with happiness...my best friend got married, and it was a blast! As the personal attendant it was my ultimate job to take care of the bride! Which if any of you knew me you know how much I love taking care of people :) After all the wedding festivities (and three days of drinking) I survived and the wedding was gorgeous! I did realize that some people will never change. People make mistakes, some people learn from them, own the fact that they made them and move on. However there will always be the people who deny the fact of anything...Sad, but living in denial will get you no place. What is the saying...Denile is not just a river in Egypt.
I've made mistakes, big ones, and there is no living without regret, because regardless of it is buying the biggest cheeseburger and eating the whole thing with a big greasey basket of fries to something huge, we all regret the mistakes we feel we have made. I have made some whoppers of mistakes for sure. I can't take them back but I'm sure working on learning from them. Growing up is never fun, but the ride that we get to take on this long path certainly is.
As I sit back and think of everything that has happened within these last few years of my life all I can say is I'm blessed. I may not have the most money, the best car, the designer clothes...but I have life and that is all that matters. At the break of the day I'm thankful the man above for giving me the air in my lungs and the ground beneath my feet to run on and make a future with.
This past week so much happened, there was so much excitement filled with happiness...my best friend got married, and it was a blast! As the personal attendant it was my ultimate job to take care of the bride! Which if any of you knew me you know how much I love taking care of people :) After all the wedding festivities (and three days of drinking) I survived and the wedding was gorgeous! I did realize that some people will never change. People make mistakes, some people learn from them, own the fact that they made them and move on. However there will always be the people who deny the fact of anything...Sad, but living in denial will get you no place. What is the saying...Denile is not just a river in Egypt.
I've made mistakes, big ones, and there is no living without regret, because regardless of it is buying the biggest cheeseburger and eating the whole thing with a big greasey basket of fries to something huge, we all regret the mistakes we feel we have made. I have made some whoppers of mistakes for sure. I can't take them back but I'm sure working on learning from them. Growing up is never fun, but the ride that we get to take on this long path certainly is.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Maybe it does matter...
"30 years from now, it won't matter what jeans you wore, how popular you were, what your hair looked like, or what sneakers you wore. What will matter is what you made of your education, and where it took you in life."
Surprisingly as much as it seems that we are just trying to front that the comments and the way you look wouldn't matter to everyone, we do let the little things phase us. It was recently brought to my attnetion that a skirt I wear may be a little too shirt, that the high heels that I walk around in are a little to high and the "cat-eye" like make up that I do is a little disturbing. I never thought that it would phase me as much as it did. Honestly I wanted to wear my shortest skirt and do my make up even better than the last time, and the heels well I'm short and they can get over the fact that I look good. As Erin Brokivich says, "As long as I have 2 asses instead of one, I'll wear whatever I want to" These women, mid 30 and 40 year old females, have decided that making a mockery is what they will do at their weekend jewelry parties. Pretty sad that you have nothing to do but sit around and talk about someone you feel threatened by. I will never understand but for now...F off I will wear what I look good in, and for now that is probably everything you can't wear!
Surprisingly as much as it seems that we are just trying to front that the comments and the way you look wouldn't matter to everyone, we do let the little things phase us. It was recently brought to my attnetion that a skirt I wear may be a little too shirt, that the high heels that I walk around in are a little to high and the "cat-eye" like make up that I do is a little disturbing. I never thought that it would phase me as much as it did. Honestly I wanted to wear my shortest skirt and do my make up even better than the last time, and the heels well I'm short and they can get over the fact that I look good. As Erin Brokivich says, "As long as I have 2 asses instead of one, I'll wear whatever I want to" These women, mid 30 and 40 year old females, have decided that making a mockery is what they will do at their weekend jewelry parties. Pretty sad that you have nothing to do but sit around and talk about someone you feel threatened by. I will never understand but for now...F off I will wear what I look good in, and for now that is probably everything you can't wear!
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Interesting...
So I saw this on my Yahoo homepage today and thought I'd share it with you guys! Soooo, what do you think, have you found The One yet?!?! haha!! its hilarious but enjoyable to read
The Indications:
So chances are, there is more than one person out there who fits the bill for you. All of them are less than perfect. But if there are no perfect partners, how can you know whether to stay or go? Here are 10 relationship markers to help you know if he or she is The One:
1. When you're together you feel like you've come home.
2. You feel like your partnership was meant to be, as if kissed by destiny.
3. In your communication with each other there is a rapid "knowing" of what each of you means.
4. You have a shared mission in life, perhaps a cause, a career, or the creation of a family life.
5. When you're together the world seems like a better place.
6. Your mood is elevated when you're together. It's not necessarily passion or excitement, although that's there too at times.
7. When you look at him/her you see a part of yourself that's been missing. Perhaps it's her assertiveness or his joy of adventure. But it's something that when added to your life, makes you feel more complete.
8. Being together makes you more hopeful about the future you are creating.
9. You can be more authentic and fully yourself around your partner.
10. Being together makes each of you work harder on overcoming bad habits and becoming more loving people.
Don't worry if you don't feel all 10 of these things when you're with your partner. That's where the imperfection comes in -- either in you or your partner. If you are experiencing six or more of these markers, chances are you are matched well. Over time you can work towards having all of these qualities. Couples who have lasting love find that their relationships get closer and better over time. And that process has been my privilege and good fortune to experience personally -- after a lot of hard work that continues to this day!
Bottom line: your chances of finding The One are better than you think. So go out there and start looking. Love almost always comes in a surprise package that opens up in marvelous and magical ways.
The Indications:
So chances are, there is more than one person out there who fits the bill for you. All of them are less than perfect. But if there are no perfect partners, how can you know whether to stay or go? Here are 10 relationship markers to help you know if he or she is The One:
1. When you're together you feel like you've come home.
2. You feel like your partnership was meant to be, as if kissed by destiny.
3. In your communication with each other there is a rapid "knowing" of what each of you means.
4. You have a shared mission in life, perhaps a cause, a career, or the creation of a family life.
5. When you're together the world seems like a better place.
6. Your mood is elevated when you're together. It's not necessarily passion or excitement, although that's there too at times.
7. When you look at him/her you see a part of yourself that's been missing. Perhaps it's her assertiveness or his joy of adventure. But it's something that when added to your life, makes you feel more complete.
8. Being together makes you more hopeful about the future you are creating.
9. You can be more authentic and fully yourself around your partner.
10. Being together makes each of you work harder on overcoming bad habits and becoming more loving people.
Don't worry if you don't feel all 10 of these things when you're with your partner. That's where the imperfection comes in -- either in you or your partner. If you are experiencing six or more of these markers, chances are you are matched well. Over time you can work towards having all of these qualities. Couples who have lasting love find that their relationships get closer and better over time. And that process has been my privilege and good fortune to experience personally -- after a lot of hard work that continues to this day!
Bottom line: your chances of finding The One are better than you think. So go out there and start looking. Love almost always comes in a surprise package that opens up in marvelous and magical ways.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
New Me....
I guess for awhile now, I have been doing some major revamping on who I am...And for the most part I think that there have been some positive changes in my life. In the past few months, I have decided to rid my life of the negativity, that I should stand for something before I fall for everything.
Life has been an uphill battle, but at the same time, everything that has happened has only made me who I am today as well as a stronger person. I won't be the person who will sit back and let things slide, because I am stronger than that and learned that lesson too many times.
Too much in life we hold onto the past struggling to make things the way they were because were comfortable in that state of mind, however learning to take on new challenges seems to be exciting. I'm learning that settling is not something that I should ever have to do, because I am worth what I put into myself.
If you always make the choice and feel like it is not the right one, maybe re-evaluation is something that you should take into consideration.
Don't take things for granted, one day it might mistake you for easy.
Life has been an uphill battle, but at the same time, everything that has happened has only made me who I am today as well as a stronger person. I won't be the person who will sit back and let things slide, because I am stronger than that and learned that lesson too many times.
Too much in life we hold onto the past struggling to make things the way they were because were comfortable in that state of mind, however learning to take on new challenges seems to be exciting. I'm learning that settling is not something that I should ever have to do, because I am worth what I put into myself.
If you always make the choice and feel like it is not the right one, maybe re-evaluation is something that you should take into consideration.
Don't take things for granted, one day it might mistake you for easy.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Today...
As I sit here with tears just starting to well up in my eyes, I have to sit back and realize what am I doing, why on earth am I crying?
Finally after 11 months of going back and forth being taken advantage of and seeing what things really are, I let go. I had to let go and yet I am not looking back, I can't. I have to learn that walking away even running for that matter is the best.
Even though it hurts really bad, I have to do it, and hey you never know as fast as I run, it may just be in a circle, but I have to at least start....
I mean how long can one person go on with a charade of what they really want out of life, as opposed to taking a stand and really just getting what you want.
It's time for me and what I want and I'm not settling for less than that.
Finally after 11 months of going back and forth being taken advantage of and seeing what things really are, I let go. I had to let go and yet I am not looking back, I can't. I have to learn that walking away even running for that matter is the best.
Even though it hurts really bad, I have to do it, and hey you never know as fast as I run, it may just be in a circle, but I have to at least start....
I mean how long can one person go on with a charade of what they really want out of life, as opposed to taking a stand and really just getting what you want.
It's time for me and what I want and I'm not settling for less than that.
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